What I Have Learned - Take Six

I have learned that I need to find my faith again.

I have always believed in God. I was baptized Lutheran and raised Methodist. I have attended Sunday School, confirmation, weekly service, not so weekly services. I have brought my children up in much the same manner. Some weeks we attend services, some weeks we do not. However, I would classify our lives as more spiritual than religious.

God has always been more of a background than a foreground in my life. My beliefs were there, but not my dedication. I have lived my life based more on logic than faith. I needed to see something to believe it, instead of just believing IN it.

I still have issues with religion. I still question some of the literal truth of the Bible. But my faith in God is becoming stronger each day. I have opened the prayer lines back up. I have opened my heart to trusting in His faith and guidance. I have put my faith in Him as well, to shape my life and guide me.

I am an analytical person who likes facts and proof, I also have some pretty big issues with trust. So relying on faith, and faith alone, has been a difficult journey for me. It's a road I am still traveling each and every day. I need to trust more in my life. I need to believe that all things do not have to be seen in order to be felt. I need to put my heart and life in God's hands sometimes, and remember not everything is within my control. I need to find and embrace my faith.