It seems everything in my life lately has come to major crossroads. I have some pretty big girl decisions to make, and they just aren't easy. I struggle with knowing what is the best option, what will make me happiest, what is best for everyone else involved. Sometimes my heart says one thing, my brain says another. I don't know which one to listen to, which one to trust, and how much trust I even have in myself anymore.
I have personal life decisions to make. But how do you know what is the right decision? How can you be sure? I have tried to learn from my mistakes in the past, to right my wrongs, be a better person. But the decisions still sit so heavily on my shoulders. Taking chances and risks are so against my very nature, but sure things in life just don't exist.
I have a really big medical decision to make. There are risks and concerns on both sides of the matter. There are no easy decisions to even consider.
What complicates all these matters is that I am not making decisions for just myself, I am making decisions for five other little ones. What I do, what I choose, affects them just as much, if not more, than it does me. Talk about some serious added stress.
The weight on my chest is heavy, the world on my shoulders won't budge. And I can't put them off forever.
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